Thursday, December 27, 2012


Thank you fo r all of the girls gifts :) thank you for my music lessons, too :))) love you guys


Thank you so much for the "spoiling" of us and the kiddos. The museum membership is more valuable than you can know!! Thank you SO MUCH!!!


Uncle Bill xmas

Thank you Uncle Bill for the box of xmas gifts for the girls. They love everything you sent!!!!

Mathenys Xmas

Thank you to Auntie J for spending so much time with us and the babies.  And for all of our gifts, we love them. Thank you for caring so much and being so awesome. 

Thank you Mom and Dad Matheny for so much. Thank you for the lovely home to stay in when we visit. Thank you for being such amazing grandparents while also giving us a break. Thank you for the meals and thoughtfulness of your food choices. Thank you for all of our gifts, you are entirely too generous. Thank you for the lift tickets. And PaPaul, thank you for the skiing lesson :) Tutu, thank you for my pillow and thank you for making such an amazing quilt for me especially custom to me. 

I love you guys, Matt and the girls do too.


Babe xmas


Thank you for another wonderful xmas season. Thank you for working so hard so we can have gifts and warmth and clothes and a home. Thank you for cooking Xmas dinner for my family, LAST MINUTE! Thank you for watching Ty's babies and our kiddos so we could go to the McVey Baby shower.
Thank you for the lovely ski day.
Thank you for my gifts, I loved them <3

I love you and thank you for being you


Gma Xmas

Thank you, Gramma for all of the AMAZING gifts :) and all of the love and support you offer us consistently.

Xmas Thanks Ty

Thank you Ty Ty for the BEAUTIFUL PILLOW! I love it so much!

I didn't make it

Well, I didn't make the Gratitude November goal...
But I am going to forgive myself and keep on bein' grateful!

I am grateful the Mayans were wrong.

Thursday, November 15, 2012

11/15/12 Living and Living

Today I am thankful to be alive. Once in a while i have the right mind to think about this existence and how lucky I am to participate in it.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

11/14/12 Fun and Ty

Even if life is dealing you the SHITTIEST hands, shit within shit, a shitception, it is so so so good to have some fun. It may even help you think of the shit pile in a different way. Let go of your anger and have fun!


Thank you for suggesting and making an US night happen. Totally what I needed (and i didn't even have to tell you which means the world to me). I love you, sis.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

11/13/12 Caring a Regina

To care about someone is to put their feelings in the forefront of your mind. By doing so, you're able to show love.


thank you for letting me be a part of your struggle. i actually appreciate your honesty, dignify your struggle and want to help. i'll be here always as a sober friend.

Monday, November 12, 2012

11/12/12 Love and Kaleigh

Sometimes love isn't enough. Never forget to talk to yourself in your love languagae to remember you're worthy of your own love.


Thank you for being there for me. I love you soooo much! You are one amazing person and friend. And you're probably really good at all the other titles you identify with.


Sunday, November 11, 2012

11/11/12 Disagreeing and Soliders

I was indoctrinated to believe that you must gives thanks to the brave men and women who fight for our country. Thank you to all those men that did not voluntarily serve in Vietnam and prior. Thank you, service-folk since Vietnam for being brave and fighting for what you believe in.

Saturday, November 10, 2012

11/10/12 Patience and Nora

Patience is most certainly a skill that must be practiced. When I have been impatient, I find it incredibly healthy to relive the situation and redo my actions, how i wished i had handled things. Redo's are important to me.

Nora Lee- thank you for being a wonderful auntie and friend to the girls. I know you love them so much and it means the world to me.

Friday, November 9, 2012

11/9/12 A Good View and the Hollons

If you have the sense of sight, it can help remind you how wonderful it is to be alive. When I am down, I like to find a pretty view and think. Life goes on within you and without you.


Thank you for continuing to invite me into your lives. I understand it may be painful to see me, and relive some of the hard times you've been through. I am grateful you love me and want to see me.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

11/8/2012 Breaking up and Leticia

Breaking up is hard to do. But sometimes it's the best. For me personally, there is a point where I am more frustrated with a friend than any benefit they bring to my life, I have to divorce them.  I find myself frustrated with someone else's actions, especially when their actions are not healthy nor promoting growth or health, I have to distance myself from them. 

thank you for being my friend. thank you for making time for me and being honest and genuine and helping me learn life lessons in a healthy and dynamic way!

<3 you!

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

11/7/12 Set Goals and Brain

I find when I am not centered, I need to write down my goals: emotional; physical; mental goals. Often I find that I didn't realize a core value not being met until I have taken the time to define my own goals and reflect on the commonalities within the goals.

dear brain

thank you for the wonderful dreams. thank you for existing. thank you for being able to overcome obstacles.

love, your PFC

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

11/6/12 Be forgiven and Mooreheads

To be forgiven you have to accept that you are forgiven.

Thank you, Mooreheads, for an excellent party an your forgiveness over a year ago!

Monday, November 5, 2012

11/5/12 forgive yourself and sav

You have to (truly, wholly, with most difficulty) forgive yourself in order to get over an unresolved issue.


Dude you always make me feel like I can do anything. How lucky is the world to have you?


Sunday, November 4, 2012

11/4/12 selfless and the girls

Try to love others as you love yourself- you absolutely deserve the same.

my dearest darling lovely girls-

thank you for being the most precious and important things that could ever come to be. you make me want to be a better person and when you smile it makes everything okay. my mom used to make me feel that way; her positivity  helped me remember things are going to be okay. now you do. when mommy is having a bad day all i want to do is hold you and take a warm nap. when you fall asleep i watch you and admire how beautiful you are until I am so comfortable I drift off to sleep. you are magical people and my luck is beyond conceivable! that i get to be your momma. 

i love you with every cell in my body and every mitochondria of those cells do too, 


Saturday, November 3, 2012

11/3/12 positive thinking and matt

If you're in a human relationship, sometimes you will be annoyed with a situation or your partner, and you're going to feel something like resentment or discontentment with your partner. Sometimes the resolution is lengthy or difficult and cannot be achieved in an immediate sense. If you are in a "rut" as I like to call it, I would like to suggest that you take 1-5 minutes of your day and just think positive thoughts about your life. Simple or complex, any positive thoughts on your life. Then take an equal amount of time to think of positive thoughts about your partner.

Thank you for being my husband. You are a strong and brilliant man and your focus and determination is amazing. I hope for you that you find what you need to be truly content. 


Friday, November 2, 2012

11/2/12 shut up and julie

When you want someone to share their thoughts with you, shut up. Shut your outward and inward selves up. Be aware of your breath like you're meditating. Listen to the person you've engaged. If what they are saying makes your mind wander, catch up with your breathing. Listen and feel yourself breath until you are centered in listening again. When you figure out how to be less distracted in intense environments you have achieved a little piece of enlightenment. 

Shutting up is a powerful tool when you're an extrovert. 

julie- thank you for bringing me feel better remedies when i was sick. 

Thursday, November 1, 2012

11/1/12- vulnerable and krissy

Being vulnerable is critical to your important relationships. Being vulnerable is honest and raw: you can find a person's values in the context of what they choose to share with you if they are doing so with vulnerability.

Being vulnerable can lead to pain but it can also lead to love.

november goals

i am going to post here everyday in november. no joke. i am going to think of a "truth" every day and post it alongside a thank you. also, on a personal note i am going to do a short gratitude meditation every day this month.


Tuesday, October 2, 2012


dear husband-

thank you for changing. thank you for making difficult choices about growing up and becoming a man. you make me so happy! i love you!


Tuesday, August 21, 2012


thank you for always being an open ear for me. you provide me with amazing understanding and i appreciate how easy it is to talk to you. i am so grateful to have you in my life.


thank you taliah (or talulah as everyone else thinks your name is said haha) for helping me when i need a friend. it is nice to be able to tell you how i am feeling regarding other relationships in my life and know that it is safe with you. know that i'll get support and feedback and you will gently let me know when i am absurd. love you chickie


thank you, dearest lover, for taking the BC responsibility for our lives. i am eternally grateful, love.


thank you for coming over and having a 5 hour chat session. you have no idea what closure you brought me. i didn't realize i wanted more closure. you gave me so much information, i will never forget. i hope that we can forge a new relationship and find other things to bond over, things that we don't have a competition over :P


thank you for the ticket hook up and for the sweet invites to play in the mountains. i hope we can get together again soon.

Friday, August 3, 2012

Random jump street chick

Thank you for our free pass into
Jump street!!!!


Thank you to anyone who knows me and geniunely likes and appreciates me. <3


Thank you for bringing Alaysia to Colorado. I know visiting is a little less easy, and you aren't getting any "break". You're a wonderful Gma. Also, thank you for our newest painting. I
Love it!!


Friend- thank you for becoming my friend and staying my friend for all these years. You are a neat person. I enjoy your company pal. Also, thanks for being such an open person. I think you're a great example for many people you know.


Thank you for coming over with french pastries. What a treat. And thank
You for all the good conversation.

Ms heard

Thank you for coming out to Colorado and being so fun. I'm
Enjoying our time!

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

i'm sorry to adam

dear adam-

i am sorry that i was a bitch to you.  i am sorry i let other people influence my actions. i am sorry that i took your things as keepsakes (that is stealing! and i fully intend on making it right). i am sorry i allowed myself to rebound with you. you deserved a better me. a rebounded me, that would've really been awesome. i am sorry i did not love myself enough to love correctly you when you were my bf. it wasn't fair to you. i cannot regret my actions because they led me to leona and stella via matt, but i did us an injustice and i am sorry.

 i think you're an awesome person, i always have. you deserve nothing but happiness.

i am grateful to you for all of life's lessons you helped teach me. i am thankful to you for all of the sweetest and most romantic gestures you did for me. the things you did for me help me understand the human condition, and understand how deeply flawed i am, yet lovable, and that accepting my flaws was the only way i could make it out alive (until death). i am deeply appreciative of all the love you gave me. i have carried the confidence that helped me gain ever since. i think of you often and hope that someday we will have a comfortable place to reconnect. i adore your soul. if you ever need a friend, no one would be more interested than,

your old friend,


Wednesday, July 18, 2012

west wippels

thank you for offering to take my cats. it is best for them and they will make you happy. it is also a relief for me that they are happy. good thing all around. now we share family. thank you

back to thank you- eric

thank you for comforting me after my grandfather died.
 thank you for giving my something to look forward to after spending a week in the cancer ward in Indiana, watching my grandfather slowly die. when my mom and i drove back from the visit, i listened to the postal service's give up album about 200 times. i remember the moment i got back from that trip and you were waiting at my apartment. on my couch. i remember how i felt good for the first time in weeks. i will always cherish those feelings and thank you for your kindness. 

I'm sorry post to Eric

This post has been hard to start. I thought- hindsight is 20/20, oh cliche philosophy. I thought I could narrate the story I am trying to tell. I wholeheartedly just want to apologize and own my shortcomings without pointing a finger or placing blame anywhere else. I decided a finely tuned letter should do the job (there will be plenty of edits)-

Dear Eric-
I am so sorry that I was mean to you. You got so much of my serious crazy! Early twenties Ruby was wasteful, put SO MUCH ENERGY into trying to control things she couldn't control, was needy and didn't accept she was deeply flawed. I know now that I was demanding, hard to communicate with, a bad listener and I hardly reflected on anything to get a better understanding. I am so sorry I gave you so much crazy. I was in a weird-kind-of-bad place in my head. I am sorry I yelled at you and tried to control everything about our friendship and ultimately our more-than-friendship. No one deserves to be yelled at. I was yelled at my entire young life, and I know now it was abuse. I come across things from that time in my life- a journal entry on a computer or a physical letter form one of us. I was and am still a manipulative arguer. I still struggle with my own knack for arguing. I am sorry for not having any control over myself. I am sorry for not trusting you. I was entirely skeptical that a man could ever love me. I know now that I am lovable, and I am sure my husband is grateful. 

Apologizing is great, but I believe gratitude is more important. Thank you for being a part of my young life. Thank you for letting me try (and be erroneous) as a partner in a relationship. What we had helped me grow into the woman I am today, so I thank you for your role. I could thank you for days for all the great times we spent together and the nice things you did for me. 


Friday, May 18, 2012

kira twin mom

thank you for your kindness. i have passed the bed along to another family who needed it.


Thank you for telling matt to kiss me. And for accepting my apology. I hope we get together soon.


Thank you for comforting me when I had break-ups. You didn't even put the move on me. You were an excellent friend.

Matt Carroll

Thank you for taking me to prom and being a perfect gentlemen. You are a wonderful soul, old friend.


for a few minutes, i couldn't remember your name. you were very kind. This is weird but thank you for not trying to sleep with me. I probably would have slept with you had you tried but you didn't and i deeply appreciate it.


Thank you for being there for me when Eric broke my heart. You're a good man.

random acts of kindness

i want to post about some really random kind memories i have-


to dave withrow- thank you for making me feel special in 8th grade. I REALLY needed it. 

Wednesday, May 9, 2012


thank you for helping make boulder happen. you can't have any idea how greatly this has changed our whole family.

chels and josh

thank you for the weekend retreat. thank you for being such cool people. it is so easy to be around you. you pretty much rock.


thank you for the buckethead night. that was awesome sauce. an electric tuba?! yes, please!

joey v

thank you, joey, for helping my little family in purchasing our home. you saved our asses!


thank you for reading my blogs and trying ever so softly to help me with my path.

new friend michelle v.

thank you for your kindness and making me feel like the valley is my home. you are an awesome person and i enjoy spending time with you.


thank you for not giving up on me. thank you for trying to teach me what you believe to be right. also, thank you for being such an avid reader, i benefit from every suggestion you make.


thank you for your continuous support, happy text messages and over all encouragement. <3


thank you to me for having the courage to continue your quest to be a better person. it isn't easy and sometimes it actually sucks to do the right thing, but here, today, i appreciate where i have taken myself.


thank you for the baby hair cuts and the check!

Wednesday, March 21, 2012


thank you for your understanding. you're going to be alright!

nathan c martin

when we were 7 and 10 you made my little heart sing. last night i got out the letter i had saved that you wrote me when we were in our teens. even in your letter you were so nervous! i am so sad that you killed yourself. or at least that's what i was told. the news made me think about the times we had as kids together. at the wensel's house... or the thousand times i called you. you were actually pretty nice to me, and didn't say mean things. thank you for being kind to such a dorkie little girl. i will forever cherish the memories of chasing you around with jason and catching a glance of you at edison elem; both of our cheeks would get so red! that's not easy for my cheeks. good rest, "longlost friend". <3

Tuesday, February 28, 2012


thank you, matty, for ringo ;)


thank you besite for the awesome book! ! i love it!! you are so thoughtful!!!

shelby rose

thank you for being such a sweet little cuz all of these years. i couldn't have asked for a better cousin.


thank you for taking care of me two sick littles and a sick doggie and keeping your head on your shoulders. you are the strongest man i know.

dr nate at steamboat vet

thank you for taking care of my old man dog. you rock.


thank you for respecting my wishes and not holding them against me regarding the birthday party. i hope that when i make it to denver, i can show you my feelings and you will accept them and we can forge through this together.

new friend sarah

thank you for being such an interesting lady and taking interest in me. it is nice to make new friends, however distant.


thank you for being there for me, checking up on me and being supportive along the way. you are a dear friend to me.

rando fb lovers

thank you, random facebook friends for showing me love and compassion. you all rock my social network.

amanda azbiull

thank you for sending the videos to me. also, thank you for liking my art. i hope you like the pieces i made for you!!!


to our lovely pediatric nurse- thank you for taking the time to remember and ask about some of the difficult things going on in our lives. you made our office visits so much better!


thank you chelsea for coming to my rescue. i went through a couple hard weeks and you came and totally changed the dynamic in my house. you were patient and offered much insight into letting time pass and being comfortable within boundaries you cannot control. thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

husband toooo

thank you for continuously trying to make me understand how much you love me. you are an amazing partner, daddy and provider. i could not bare to go on without you.
sabi d- thank you for helping me heal many mnay wounds. even though you're as neurotic as they come, you're a good boy.

My gramama and grampapa

thank you for being such amazing people. and thank you for the care you gave my mother when she was young.

Cousin Melina

Ha! You made me puke in granny's bar... Having me drink some nasty old booze when i was maybe seven. thank you for finally liking me in my late teens ;)


When I was 18, I went through a bad break up. The boyfriend was awful & made me feel awful even past the relationship. Mom & Brian took Me and the dogs to winter ark for the winter park music festival, and on the long ride home you and I bonded. Blinky, thank you for what you have shown me. I began to understand how a thing being can overcome obstacles and live a fulfilling life because of you. You rock, lil dog.
also, thank you mom and brian for the winter park trip, that was the thing i needed to ditch the asshole.

My American girl dollst

My parents certainly could not have afforded to buy me American Girl dolls. Thank you Grampa Phil for getting me two!! I love them so much. They were my pride and joys. Thank you gramma sherry for making me so many accessories for the dolls.

Dr Moeller

Thanks for letting me participate in the MUN. 

mom and dad inlaw

thank you for your continuous and relentless love and support of matty and myself. we sure do love and appreciate you.

ken and jen

first, thank you ken for moving to colorado and inspiring others in our family to move here. also, thank you both for trying to be a good fun couple. i look up to ya'll.

little lady loves

thank you for existing. without you my life would be unimaginably less fulfilling.

opportunities to sleep

sometimes i just get out these thanks you's to get them out... to help me log and remember what i should be grateful for. well i am grateful for sleep, and here is a short thank you list to those of you who have facilitated my sleeping:
Mom and Dad in law
Sister and Brother in law
Gramma Sherry

thank you all for letting me sleep once in a while. it means the world to me.

d and j partay

thank you for hosting the girl's bday party. your house is so lovely and perfect for parties like we had. i appreciate it.

mom and brian

thank you for your noble efforts to get up her for the girl's 2nd birthday. i know how bad it sucked, how overwhelmed you were. love you

spit and ty

thank you, matt and tyler for coming up here and giggling and having fun. i think you guys rock!

lisa and austin

first ly, thank you both so much for coming up here and helping make the babies' bday weekend sooo special. also, thank you for helping so much. thank you for philosophizing. thank you for being such real people.

my fraaaan meghan

thank you so much for coming over and making me feel better when i was down. i hope that you and i are still great friends when and if i get out of this place :)

you, valentine's day, me-happy

you continuously surprise me on vday. thank you for your sweet gestures. i love the flowers, chocolate and that you ate the dinner i made you. i love you so much, matty.


thank you, dad, for sending the girls such a thoughtful box of goodies for valentines day.

Friday, January 20, 2012

matty matt

thank you, matty for being willing to learn, and grow. this side of you is sexy and demands respect.

selfish post

today, i feel gratitude towards myself. we are trained to believe that selfishness is necessarily bad. well you know what? it isn't. taking care of the self means you can take care of others' needs. thank you to me for being willing to be uncomfortable to understand myself, my feelings and really get to the bottom of the way i behave. it is to better everything important in my life (leona, stella, and matt).

Monday, January 2, 2012


you continuously spoil me and give me great understanding. thank you for coming to stay with me and teaching me the things you want me to know. i love you, gma.

tif and chris

having the mooreheads back in my life has brought me great joy and happiness. thank you for spending time with me and my family. we love you guys.


thank you for being my sisterbestie. we are two totally different people but our lives are so intertwined and i wouldn't want it any other way. i am proud of you for your efforts in school.


thank you wyatt for teaching me what love is in preparation for my own babies.

mom and dad inlaw

thank you for your continuous and relentless love and support of matty and myself. we sure do love and appreciate you.


i don't think i will ever stop having gratitude for your existence in my life. thank you for all that you do for me, especially being my best friend.

austin, stranger

thank you for having impeccable indie music taste; i took it as a sign of things to come.

krissy ray nichols

thank you for writing me. we love you guys


j&d- thank you for continuously being our love and support in the boat. we would not be as happy here without you.

NYE extravaganza!

thank you savandrew for making the trip up here, being troopers, playing hard, giving my babies gifts, loving my family and teaching us so much. so much love.


thank all of you for the xmas gifts for my family. the babies have everything they could possibly want as do i.

thank you all


thank you hubban, for giving me the opportunity to stay home with our children day in and day out. i love you and them more than i ever knew i could love. <3


thank you, little girls, for teaching me how to be a mommy.


i am thankful for another year with my family.